I was having a clear out of old paperwork recently in anticipation of the incoming GDPR legislation when I came across a poem I wrote in 2005 that I had completely forgotten about. Having found it, I remembered with extraordinary clarity why I’d written it. Like all entrepreneurs, I had many dark days when I wondered a) why I was doing whatever it was that I was doing and b) how I was going to look after my staff, family and friends.
I know from the mentoring work that I now do that many leaders feel or have felt the same way at some point. And so I thought I’d publish my poor effort here in the hope that it might help someone articulate how they feel so that they can deal with it and move on.
Fear I want to talk about fear. The cold, dark place in my mind where I sit, damp with sweat and paralysed, unable to focus for fear of What? What exactly am I afraid of? Fear of failure? Why? I’ve done it before so I know how. Fear of the unknown? But I've always loved a Challenge, always treated life as a game. Fear of change? Hmm, good question. Am I afraid of change? Do I no longer love a Challenge? Fear? What is fear? Am I afraid of being afraid? Fear? What is fear? A state of mind. That I must control!